Thursday, May 22, 2008

Ruthless

If I knew that there was a ruthlessness to love
And an abyss that had no light
I never would have limped your way for your helping hand
I strutted like a fool who thought sh.e knew it all
Like a typical teenager with a rebellion of some sort,
Thinking I knew what love was, what you were.
And then I grew up to fall on my face
Within the words you wrote and the tears I spilled
To realize that love is often pain
Disguised with sweet words and honeyed memories.
If I knew that you had a life of your own and strung me along
Into your little web with lies and fairytales,
I never would have turned back around… twice… thrice…
All the time.
Where are you when I want you to oblige?
What are you doing when I need you to see
The light that’s fading before our eyes?
And so I think I’ll sit alone for a while
To find my life again, without you.
I’ll sit alone for a while
So I can find my love for you.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Fo' Shizzle, Ma Nizzle, Ma homies!

The Blog tag game thing.


Last movie seen in a theatre:
Juno! ---> God bless Shar for putting up with all those sighs of mine!

What book are you reading?
The Quest by Wilbur Smith

Favourite board game:Monopoly

Favourite magazine:Seventeen and Cosmo. And no, it is not about the sex. (This is the part where I looked pointedly at Shar, the perv). I am a girl. I like girl things.

Favourite smells:Many things. The rain, new bata shoes, new books, scented ink pens, mens' colognes, mangoes, wet mud, something baking, mom's perfume... and I can go on and on.

Favourite sound; Windchimes while its raining.

Worst feeling in the world: Falling down the stairs in front of two hot guys and then having them try not to laugh at you. Darn it.

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?*Blank*

Favourite fast food place:KFC... or anything edible. Really.

Future child’s name: Laxmisubramaniyellagirikamlama ---> : Laxbrayelma for short (her cool nickname)

Finish this statement, “If I had a lot of money I’d…” Get myself a brilliant education and buy jim morrison's grave.

Do you drive fast?Do I drive at all? --> No.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No. I sleep with Mr.Huggy. Stuffed animals are for babies. pah.

Do you eat the stems on broccoli? I eat the broccoli.

If you could dye your hair any colour, what would be your choice? I ain't doin' no such thing. *waves around a rake threateningly*

Name all the different cities/towns you have lived in:Bombay, Pune, Chennai, Dubai, Bangalore.

Favourite sports to watch: none.

One nice thing about the person who sent this to you:She keeps flicking MM's cool answers... she's pretty lame. Ha Ha.

What’s under your bed? Shakespeare and his many mistresses. Scary no?

Would you like to be born as yourself again? Yes. Cause I'm so much cooler than the rest of the world.

Morning person or night owl?Latter

Over easy or sunny side up? sunny side up.

Favourite place to relax: wherever I find my happy place.

Favourite ice cream flavour: dark choco or blackcurrent

You pass this tag to –Bunny, Pari, Princess Selene

Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first? None cause they've all done it already.

Ok so what you guys have to do is copy this tag game, paste, link the person who tagged you (me!) and choose five more people to tag and link them.Go on, its not that difficult! You can do it! Fly forth my children! Fly forth!

Monday, May 19, 2008

Mono (1)

I use metaphors to describe the indescribable
When I have no other way to emote my feelings
And the world seems to crumble in melancholic bliss
Of concrete houses and zero ideals.
And I sit within the swirls of the grey smoke and wet skies
Wondering where you are
Where we are…
I watch through the slits in my eyes because the world is just too bright
With these people who walk by, innocently, unassuming… unattainable.
Do they know that I am sickeningly in love?
Drenched in confusion, lacking any verbal skills I might have possessed;
Ridden with the incapability to smile back at that gorgeous stranger
Because I am just too busy drowning in thoughts of you.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Over The Rainbow... So High.

Yoohoo!

I’m back……………….. you can try to look happy now.

So I’ve been spending the last two days having a paradoxical love affair over the phone and with myself. It’s fun… not. That being said, I think it’s time decisions were made.

I fell off the wall yesterday… the one above the clouds and now I’m trying desperately to climb back up.

Believe it or not, it’s a lot of fun.

A. Lot.

Frowning, crying, yelling or anything remotely negative is a crime up there!

I think I found my happy place!

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Happy place is gone.

I can’t understand anything of what is happening… but I think things might have gotten complicated by my own wrong doings… my own assumptions.