Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Conscious.

Dear Me,

Yesterday, I sat thinking about you and realized that you are not everything you aspired to be a few years ago. You're content in this world of yours that gives you less and almost nothing in comparison to what you wanted for yourself. You sit satisfied with the friends you've made, the lack of intellectual progress that you are making and the thought of the life that you might one, some day, make.
Do you not feel disgusted with yourself? Do you not feel unintelligent, far from ambitious and a pitiful version of an 18 year old?

I know you do.

I also know that you are not trying hard enough. Your capability to do so much more is just sitting within you, confined to a corner, gagged and hand bound.
Why?
Pull her out and make yourself everything you wanted to be. Make yourself larger than your life. You're young, you're 'hot-blooded' (as your mother would say), you're NOT unintelligent (even if that's how you feel), you have ambition and you have a little talent too (I think). So what's lacking, you ask?
Drive. You lack the drive and will power to throw aside all these senseless activities of yours and make some room for improvement.

In the last 2 years, you've gone through some extreme emotional change and situations. There's been pain, heartache, excessive happiness, hopes being squashed yada yada but you came out of it. I am no one to talk since these topics are usually controlled, ruled and addressed by your heart but I understood it.
I also understood that you stood above it all.
You rose above it all.

And now, I think it's time for you to make a change and become everything you want to be.
Get off your lazy behind, quit procrastinating, do your work and put all that ambition and teensy bit of talent to use!
You know you can do it.

Regards,
Your Conscience (a.k.a Your Better Half).

5 comments:

Wickedcookie said...

Your conscience be right hun..your conscience be like my conscience i dont listen to..we be soul sistahs..:*
There's a world of stuff in front of you...just you wait and watch!
Good things happent to good people who stop procrastinating.

Tups said...

We sure is! :*
*Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, flow sista
Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, go sista *

So if I don't stop procrastinating that would make me a bad person?
Aiyaa.

Red Eyes said...

Hi, my first time here. Just an introduction! I would like to stop by again if you feel a counter visit will be worth our individual busy schedules. I find your blog interesting...and please accept my compliments and this invite.
R.E.

J said...

Wow! Your conscience has been busy. That was quite something. I hope things are better. I seem to be having some luck. Let's not jinx it just yet... Much love.

Tups said...

@ Red Eyes

Your blog is really interesting. Pretty well written. Keep it up. =)

@ J
I miss you! I'm having no luck with my procrastination... I'll tell you all about it over a coffee soon. Like the DMB song on the blog. I love them too. =)