Sunday, December 16, 2007

It's quite funny how everyone seems to concentrate on the post that goes two posts down (Could You Just Answer Me?).

There was a comment I got on that post that has now been deleted by the author I see... but I am hoping many people read it.

Maybe it's time I set the record straight for millions out there who stumble into my world of words:

A) No, I am not a "lonely teenager." I just have problems like everyone around -- children, adolescents, adults.
B) I welcome opinions --> not advice. You see, advice is something I want only when I ask for it. I am quite capable for advising myself and finding answers within myself.
C) If you "don't care," you should keep your words of wisdom away from me. I don't expect strangers to care... but don't find my words to vent out your frustrations on. I don't welcome it.

Well... this was my first "general" post but the fact that certain people take time out to read my words is something I appreciate.
Thank you.

Keep moving forward... and try empathizing.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

It's been a while since my imagination ran wild...

I sit here at 12:10 a.m, listening to the still of the night, feeling the chill and humidity wrap it's tendrils around and through my skin, hearing my heart beats, listening to my thoughts and watching my imagination.

It has been a quiet week of grief, relief, happiness, content and a lot of introspection. Conclusions drawn about who I am, what I believe in, what I want... long for.

As every leaf falls and every night becomes day, I reach closer to the realms of myself I had not discovered yet. I consider it a journey -- one filled with harshness, beauty, strength... one that fills me with a sense of belonging, making me realize who I am and the power I have to be who I am. The power to face an obstacle without seeking for help, the power to say 'no' (not that that was ever a problem for me, mind you) and the power to let go.

Knowing it wasn't an easy process, these self-realizations, I am filled with a sense of pride in myself.
I feel older, more mature. I feel I am ready to take on every challenge head-on... and knowing there's more to learn just makes me want to move forward, push throught and break out.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Could you just answer me?

Frustrations prevail.

What is it with me and clinging onto hope? And waiting.... and waiting... and waiting.................. and waiting.

I need an answer but it doesn't look like I will be getting one soon. I want an answer that suites my needs, one that fits into my picture of a fairytale but that is too much to ask for.

Maybe it's time I put that foot forward and walked away with strong strides.... but why can't I?

What I wouldn't do to fold myself into that comfort.